You Believe, But Do You Trust?

I would like to share a story that I came across some days ago. 

A person started to walk on a rope tied between two tall towers several hundred feet above the ground. He walked slowly and carefully balancing himself with the help of a long stick in his hands. He had his son sitting on his shoulders.

Everyone below watched him anxiously. The man continued walking carefully on the rope and gradually reached the second tower. Everyone watching clapped, whistled, and hailed him. People shook hands and took selfies with him.

The man asked the audience, “Do you think that I can walk back on the same rope now from this side to that side”? The crowd shouted, “Yes, we believe you can; we are ready to bet on you”.

The rope walker said, “Okay, you believe in me, but do you trust that I can walk you over on my shoulders to the other side? Can anyone of you sit on my shoulders, and let me take you safely to the other side”?

Everyone became quiet. There was stunned silence.

Trust is different from belief. For trust to happen one needs to surrender totally. Belief is often cognitive, but trust is relational. One cannot trust the other without a deep and genuine relationship. 

The story offers some insights into our relationship with God. It is one thing to believe that God exists and is all good, but it is another to completely surrender to God, particularly in our moments of struggle, pain, and failure. When things go wrong in our lives, do we lose patience in God’s wisdom and God’s plan for our wellbeing? When we are crushed under failures and burdens of life, do we trust that our lives will be restored, perhaps for the better?

Trust impels us to keep our hopes high and efforts unceasing, especially in troubled times. It is not enough to believe in the existence of God, we need to trust that God will take care of my life — that I am safe in God's hands, no matter what. We can trust God that He will walk us over, however hard, painful, or complicated situations might be. 

Trust is the assurance that God will not drop us on the way. Are we willing to trust God?

 

John Baptist OFM Cap.

Clinical Counselor & Psychospiritual Resource Person

York, PA, USA

I Owe Myself an Apology

 

I owe myself an apology

For all the times

I tore myself apart.

When I neglected my own needs

Lowered my standards

Berated myself

And put myself down.

 

For the self-sabotage

I continually inflicted upon myself

And the times when I apologized

For being who I was

And expressing myself authentically.

 

And I owe myself

The permission to start anew.

 

To forgive myself

For the battles I fought

That weren’t mine to fight

For all of the love

That I failed to give myself

And for the times when I failed to realize

That rather than being broken

I was worthy of value, respect

And beautiful, brilliant things in life

 

And that's how I treated myself

Dictated how others would view me

And in turn, behave toward me

So by showering myself

With love, kindness, forgiveness and respect

In turn, I could pave the way

For others to do the same.

 

Tahlia Hunter wrote the above heartwarming poem. Hunter's words invite us to acknowledge that often it is we who understand ourselves as worthless and treat ourselves without dignity. 

When we ceaselessly look at ourselves as persons without any value then we allow others to treat us badly and assume that it is okay to be treated that way. If we value ourselves then we draw people who will value us, on the contrary, if we devalue ourselves, we can easily attract people who will mistreat and abuse us.

The experience of being loved and valued cannot be sustained from the outside rather it has its foundation within. As humans, we are born with immense value – the image of the Divine. If we can start accessing this inner, beautiful, and precious core of our being then we can truly accept, love, and value ourselves. Accepting and valuing ourselves offers a blueprint to others of how they also need to treat us. 

It is never too late; we can forgive ourselves for not treating ourselves with kindness and love. We can begin anew the journey of acceptance, love, and worthiness. 

The journey begins from within. 

John Baptist OFM Cap.

Clinical Counselor & Psychospiritual Resource Person

York, PA, USA

 

 

 

Leaving a Gaslighter

It is not healthy to remain in an exploitative relationship. Because gaslighters are so slippery and manipulative, your best bet is to cut off all contact or, at least, drastically reduce it. The following tips can help in getting out of a gaslighting relationship.

Remember how healthy people behave

If you are currently dealing with a gaslighter and trying to get away from him or her, one way to help ground yourself is to remind yourself of how psychologically healthy people behave. Stephanie Sarkis^[1] lists some important traits of healthy individuals, they:

o   Encourage expression of opinions

o   Say what they mean and mean what they say

o   Support you even if they do not agree with you

o   Let you know in a direct and kind way if you hurt them

o   Are capable of emotional intimacy—the mutual sharing of feelings and ideas

o   Trust others

o   Exhibit behaviors that are genuine and authentic^[2]

Break up in one quick conversation 

Madeleine Burry suggests, “One key to a successful split with a gaslighter is to make it fast, ideally in a single conversation. Tell them it is not working and the relationship is over, and say it in a straightforward, calm, and direct voice.”

Do not believe promises to change 

As soon as you say the relationship is over, the gaslighter may try to win you back. Expect instant apologies and promises that things will be different. Their words will sound sincere, and part of you might want to believe them. Do not. It is all part of the manipulation^[3]. 

Connect with supportive friends

Even when you know breaking up was for the best, you still might be grieving the end of a relationship that at one point seemed so promising. This is when leaning on loved ones comes in. When thoughts of giving the gaslighter a second chance creep into your head, your support network can help you to discern^[4]. If friends and family are not on hand, counseling can really help.

The relationship with a gaslighter neither succeeds nor thrives; therefore, it becomes imperative to immediately leave an unhealthy and dehumanizing relationship. 

The earlier you terminate an exploitative relationship, the better. 

 

John Baptist OFM Cap.

Clinical Counselor & Psychospiritual Resource Person

York, PA, USA

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[1] Sarkis, Stephanie, 2018, Gaslighting: Recognize Manipulative and Emotionally Abusive People—and Break Free, Da Capo Lifelong Books

[2] Sarkis, Stephanie, This Is Why Victims of Gaslighting Stay — And How They Can Finally Break Free

[3] Sarkis, Stephanie, 2018, Gaslighting: Recognize Manipulative and Emotionally Abusive People—and Break Free

[4] Burry, Madeleine, How to Break Up with a Gaslighter

How Does Gaslighting Change a Victim?

A primary goal of gaslighters is to keep the victim hooked for exploitation. Many people eventually find a way to escape a gaslighter’s influence, leaving the manipulator to search for a new target; often, they already have another victim in mind. However, it can be hard to break off with a gaslighter as gaslighting weakens a victim emotionally and cognitively. 

 

Emotional Eroding in Gaslighting

Gaslighting can be psychologically devastating. It erodes a person’s trust in themselves and makes them doubt their own dignity and value; after all, it’s easy to blame themselves for having been too trusting, vulnerable, or dependent. The experience may make a victim never open up or trust other relationships again. 

 

Cognitive Dissonance in Gaslighting

It takes a certain amount of cognitive dissonance to remain connected to a gaslighter. Cognitive dissonance occurs when you have information about the gaslighter that is completely contradictory to your beliefs, values, and what you thought you knew about that person. When a victim is in a state of cognitive dissonance, he or she may react in one of the following ways:

·        Ignore the contradictory information.

·        Fight against the contradictory information.

·        Replace beliefs and values with the contradictory information (shoved by the gaslighter).

You may have put up with gaslighting because you convinced yourself that it was normal and possibly your fault. But the healthiest way to resolve cognitive dissonance is to take action to bring yourself back into alignment with your own beliefs, dignity, and values—and many times that means leaving the gaslighter.

 

If something doesn’t feel right about a relationship or person, it is a sign to re-think your relationship.

 

John Baptist OFM Cap.

Clinical Counselor & Psychospiritual Resource Person

York, PA, USA

Notes

Stephanie Sarkis, This Is Why Victims of Gaslighting Stay — And How They Can Finally Break Free